i signed up for a 5k on dec 31.. trying to run more and walk less...
sore back and sore shins....
i still hate it...
and i am slower than molasses in january...
but i want to keep going...
i guess that's the best thing that has come out of this...

and my bff Melinda... who also is NOT a runner... decided to join in too!!! i am so excited...
so there are 4 of us training now... (at least that i know of) and i can't wait...
well i can... i mean i have to run 5 k... but that will mean that i made it...
never mind the lbs shed...
1 goal at a time...

time to shower... i am soaked!

up and at 'em...

well today i had every excuse in the book to lay on the couch...

i am in my 3rd week of training and doing my "gradual return to work"...

i started working later hours...untill 22:00 ...

i am re learning an entirely new system and processes...

it's tough... it's not a cake walk... it's mentally and physically wearing me down...

i am exhausted...

so picture it.. jammies... bags under my eyes.. no bra... turn on the tv.. it's pouring outside...and i see the biggest loser started last night and rob pvr'd it...

i'm about to turn it on...i get a text from a special friend...who wisely tells me to be patient with myself and that basically i'll adapt and that i'll get used to my new normal ...

and i totally agree..

so we chat..

i asked her about running... and i told her i was tired, my couch felt good, it was quiet in the house and it was pouring... so i wondered if i had any excuses left NOT to go out for my couch to 5K walk/run...

and then she told me that i would feel so BAD ASS if i went and ran in the rain...

so i thought about it... for about 2 minutes... went upstairs.. hair up... bra on (very important) and put my new fave tshirt on... and out i went...

results..(according to my pedometer.. it's pretty accurate..i think.. lol) 

25 mins 

2.21 kms

and even though the rain stopped by the time i got outside... i still felt BAD ASS for getting my FAT ASS out the door...

yep.. good ol fashin sweat....

eye of the tiger?

lol

live strong....live strong.. live strong...

thank you Sheri for getting me out the door...they were the exact right words at the exact right moment and words change people's mind...

and ...i am seriously nervous...

 because... ok no one laugh at me.. 

 i just signed up for my first 5k run... Dec 31st...

i am freaked out..

i have made a promise to myself and my friend to compete... and to complete this challenge..

i will do it..

live strong...

live proud...

live well...

i can do it... i can do it..

down another 2....
slow and steady wins the race...
i love that i am back to work..
routine.. meal planning.. it's forced...
and the fact that we can't eat while we work anymore is a super bonus for me... i used to snack my entire12 hour shift... so this is great!!!!

i have been down on myself a lot for this yo-yo thing...
but i don't beat myself up anymore...
the better the attitude, without regret, the better i do... and the more i want to succeed...

i am getting the water in...
i am planning ahead...
i am writing it down...
i am doing housework until i sweat...

i still love tomatoes....
and i still hate running...

that's my week... now off to work!!!!!!!!!!!!

weigh in day...
lost  1 pound....
i'll take it...
still having a few treats... which i really need to cut back to make sure my sugar stays in tact...

started work.. and i love that we are not allowed to eat unless we are on breaks or lunch...
we used to eat our whole shift.. 12 hours... maybe that's why i was 250lbs...
(see that.. just had a lightbulb moment.. LOL)
oh AND i am in my pre maternity work pants... they are big and they are heavy.. but they fit... without pain... so i am just so motivated by that this week...

found this website... Couch to 5 k
and i hate running... really i do...
but i am going to try it..
you know why?
because i used to hate tomatoes... and now .. I love them... with anything.. on anything...
so.. maybe i might like it..

but we made promises today to do at least 10-15 mins of exercise everyday for a month at our meeting....and I plan on keeping the promise...

does shopping count as exercise??? LOL...

so i am ready for the week...
have my water.. doing better with that for sure..
the eating after 7 part.. still having a bit of a hard time.. but not AS bad..
my sugar has been stable ALL week.,...
and I have been moving, moving, moving...

i feel good though... like i think this is the healthiest i have been in 5 years...
like i feel GREAT!
i'm just still fat.. so slowly but surely... and i'm ok with that..

i'm actually looking forward to this week...

i am looking for good recipes though.. nice .. hardy .. low fat..

i have started making turkey burgers instead of hamburgers... lots of  herbs and spices and they are sooooo tasty...
brown rice.. love it.. mix in some black beans, peppers, mushrooms, celery, onions, chili powder...love it... soooo yummy...
and i made stuffed peppers the other night... tomatoes, a little ricotta cheese...brown rice.. spinach... it's just so good...
and i LOVE spaghetti squash... i could totally never eat spaghetti pasta again.. i love it that much...

so there are definitely way to enjoy the food we love without all the extra fat and calories...

i'm pumped today!
thanks for checkin in!
d xo