i've been quiet..
i had been struggling....
but i am succeeding and am winning the fight...
no longer on diabetic medication.....
my last set of blood samples no longer indicated i was a diabetic...completely normal!
my weight is going in the right direction...
and although i have spinal injuries from meningitis in 2009, i am getting dressed everyday, i am out walking all the time, i get dressed even on my days off and get out of the house and i read a very special person's blog all the time to keep me motivated...
i have to be honest, i can't eat the stuff she eats..lol...and i will most likely never run a marathon but i read and watch quietly and do what i can to stay motivated.
i really wanted to run...i was going to get a tattoo with my first bib number on it ....i registered and picked up my kit for the resolution run dec 2011 and the number was perfect ...2712....71 is my birth year and 22 has always been a great number for me....unfortunately, training for the 5 k (i'm sure some of you remember my stupid videos..lol) i started to hear crunching sounds in my upper neck...after a ct and mri, it was determined that i have disks that were damaged by the meningitis and the pounding and the weight caused more damage....i had an option.. keep running and hope i don't end up in a wheelchair, or find something else to do...i chose the later...
but i will still register for race weekend for the 3km walk...i'm down, but not out...
the eating part is easy now. i belong to herbal magic...i get weighed in almost everyday and am provided counselling and one on one real time with an eating expert... they are educated with medical issues and you eat real food from the kitchen.. just portioned right and a little more often throughout the day...
i tipped the scales at my highest weight ever not too long ago, but i am proud to say that i am doing great, losing the weight, and proud of every ounce of weight i keep off....this week alone i am doing 7,2lbs...
i no longer have cravings at night, my blood sugar is stable and i feel calm all day long...it's a different life...completely different.
i have stopped hiding and started going out more and enjoying every day, the sunshine and embracing life with a new attitude...
not perfect....but trying....
I want to teach my children that their mom is a fighter...and when the going gets rough, the rough does not head for the refrigerator anymore....we go out, grab the iPod and walk the frustrations away..and we pray for guidance...
quietly plugging away...
