Ok...I'm behind...

this, not mixing scrap and life with weight loss, is hard..
having two blogs is hard...lol

ok so I am getting emails and questions on facebook about how this all works...so i will try and answer all your questions...

i was a fat ass...diabetic, hypertension...off work since June of 09...poking myself with needles 6-8 times a day...huge...not happy ...not good...not living the truth...
my last visit to the hospital by ambulance was the one they pulled me out of work to do.. my collegues had to get me there and it was not pretty....
my doctor told me that if i continued at this pace, i would never see 40...
i had my light bulb moment!

so i am going to a medically supervised (that part is important)weight management clinic at the Ottawa hospital Civic campus and i am on a 1 year diet.
SO far here is what has occured...
oct 3-
i had my orientation
weighed in a 248
BMI 48
met the other 24 people in my group who are on this journey with me..
spoke to the doctor about my goals
yadda yadda yadda..
met the behaviourist..who at one point was 444lbs and has lost all that weight...looks beautiful....very kind/cool lady
met nutritionist..whose name is Mona and is fat and talks in a monotone voice...
went home with the instructions that we are starting the program on Oct 27th

Oct 27th
weighed in a 236...yep lost 12 lbs just by not eating at night, and cutting back...
we got instructions about week 1
1200 calorie diet ...drink milk every meal...meal plan handed out...
explained how week 1 of the shakes was going to work
diet had not officially started yet.. i just chose to start.. i was ready to start...dropped my calorie intake to about 1500 cals a day...
still on all insulin

Nov 3
my first official weigh in...231
BMI not measured
lost 5 lbs on 12oo calorie diet...
received product to get us through to the following week...
4 shakes a day
no other food source allowed
by day 4 i am completely off of insulin
the shakes taste like shit.. I can barely swallow them...
i even survive the luxurious Hockley Valley Resort weekend with giant buffets...i went to Scrapfest U...me and my blender...:)

Nov 10
meeting number 3
first official week of shakes over...
weigh in 220...BMI 46...11 lbs and 2 inches from my waist...GONE!!
no insulin...
this week i am having a harder time.. my blood sugar is dropping to low...one day i even think i am stroking out...so i have to have orange juice 4 mornings in a row...takes me out of my state of non hunger (ketosis)...
doctor calls me...we talk and i have to eat diner for 2 nights...
i also started doing Jillian Michaels "20 min SHRED"...holy cow..
my scale shows no change...it's tough.. no food and no loss...

Nov 17th
meeting 4
weigh in 228...30 lbs...1 month...
BMI not measured
2 more inches from my waist..gone...
so 2 lbs this week...but i did have my period and my sugar went wonky...seems to be better..
to be honest i was disappointed...

As a side note... we go to the hospital every tuesday night as a group...we have lectures for 90 mins, then we all get weighed and measured and see the doctor..
which takes another 90 minutes...

anyway.. i can 't be disappointed with 30 lbs in 4 weeks and down 2 dress sizes!
my pants are falling off...

so 10 more weeks of shakes.. then the food integration...
so no christmas, new years or birthday diners out!!!!!
it was a choice... do or die...i chose not to die and to look better than ever at 40...which is in 13.5 months...LOL

so it's not a fad diet...
doctor monitored... can call if i am having issues anytime...
it is not for the "normal" person...
usually major underlying medical conditions...
the entire program is $8500.00...ontario health pays 5000.00 of it...so it's not cheap...AND if i need to loose even more, then the doctors are the ones who refer to the gastric bypass doctors, who are doing surgery in Ottawa now...

so that's the story so far...
today starts week 3 of shakes... and they really aren't that bad...
my goal..
be insulin and med free forever!
lower colesterol and trigliceride numbers
more energy
goal weight 180
and get back to work!!!!!

peace out!

Weight Management report.

Nov 3rd was my first official check in (after the first week of a 1200 calorie diet).
I lost 5 lbs.
So far 17lbs and I haven't started the meal replacement yet.
So not bad, very encouraging.
I was psyched!!! I was excited to start the shakes and get going with it.

Then It was here.
Wednesday morning came.
I was scared.
I blended the first one and almost gagged to get it down.
I did what they said. I followed the instructions.
The one at lunch time... just as bad...i added root beer...horrible.
The one at diner...added a pkg of my favorite crystal light to it...oh my god.. i had to down it with about a litre of water.. it was so yucky.
I still had to get another one in but unfortunately, I fell asleep with Gracie last night and didn't drink it.
The sad part... I wasn't hungry...
They were right. It is enough to satisfy you.
It just tastes bad...or an acquired taste that's for sure.

My journey has begun.
I don't like what i have to do, but I am going to love what it gets me.
I know I am going to love it.

I just started drinking my morning shake and it is actually not as bad as yesterday.
This is positive.
Current weight 231
Hooray for my side!

Well this post is a bit delayed because of illness in the house, but i had my first meeting with my wieght management group on tuesday. nice bunch of ladies...
we met with the dietician who is overweight?!?!? what is that all about?
and we met with our group leader/behaviourist who has lost 200 lbs on the plan..so it's nice to have someone who understands lead the group.
90 minutes of instruction and then 90 mins of weigh ins...
i have started my 1200 calorie diet...and the hardest part is drinking all the water...
we have all been under the weather here, so it hasn't been too hard....
been sleeping most of the day this week...
seriously exhausted...

but my first weight in
236...so a good start from my consult...
this week is the true test though...
my sugar has been crazy .. 18.8 yesterday then dropped to 5...so it's making me a bit crazy why i can't get it under control...
but i have laid off any carbs other than from fruit and veggies..
5 more days and i start the shakes..
i am going to need a few hobbies...lol
12 weeks of vanilla flavoured shakes...
this is what it has come to.
but my will power will conquer any other obstacles that come my way!

today i was at the civic for blood work and an ECG.
it went ok...
the rn that took my blood had to poke me twice...sheesh..
i decided to be part of a genetic study on obesity.
i won't benefit directly from it, but whatever they can learn about it...i'm all for it...
i got weighed while i was there.
238
so not bad...hasn't been too hard.
I only officially start the plan and program in 1 week from today, but i have been cutting back slowly for 7 days in preparation for the beginning...and it helps..it works...
although i do have remnants of cough and cold and am physically exhausted.

7 days...countdown...
getting scared...but i can do it!
i am READY!

Saturday October 17th...
this week has not been too bad.
i have stopped eating at night. big change for me. nothing after diner.
portion size is good. drinking water.
this is week 1... making changes and getting ready for the plan to start on Oct 27th.
i am nervous.
i cannot fail.
i will not fail.

current weight 241
lost a few lbs this week, just by making those few changes...
(this is according t my own scale) .. i'll give you an accurate reading when i get my first real weigh-in on the 27th.
my consultion weight was 246.
so i have been sick and not a huge appetite to begin with.
taking less rapid-insulin per meal. base glucose is hovering around 10...has been in the 20's and teen's! this is a good thing.
still taking 70 units of lantus (night time insulin)

good start.

Today is step 1
October 13th 5-8 at the Civic - Orientation for the weight loss program.
I am really nervous.
i have no idea how i am going to do this.
it's going to be the hardest thing i have done.
ever!
i can't fail...
what if i do?
i won't!
come on dorrie.. get a grip! Happy, healthy... remember...
just remember why i have no choice...
failure is not an option...

big girl panties are on....full steam ahead!

WEight Management Clinic...
Consultation- Dr bob Dent- Dr Sonia Wickham- October 5/2009
Weight 246
BMI 48
Good muscle mass 129
and have signed up for the opti fast weight program
12 weeks... shakes only 4 x a day..(900 cal/day) then gradual intro to food.
1 x week meeting 5-8pm for 26 weeks...then 1 x a month

gastric bypass consult with Dr Yelle...looking forward to that!
4 mandatory meetings for gastric bypass patients.
blood work getting done
xrays of my foot
ct and mri of stomach

start Tuesday Oct 6.. watch closely sugar and calory intake..