calling all fat kids..

so i found this site and you know...
we really are in this together...
i mean...not everyone understands the struggles of being over weight...
do they?
do thin people get it... do they REALLY REALLY get it?
at the end of the day, i am not looking to be thin..
i will never be thin... i want to be healthy...
i want to live a long life...
i want to show my kids an example...and not one of how to change sharps on the end of my insulin injections..hear what i'm saying?

you know what my mother wants? she wants to know how she can take in a size 2... you know.. a size 2...because her pants are getting a bit baggy....i know, i know.. it's rough..
just sayin'!

so now.. i am joining mcfatty mondays...
every monday i will be giving pics, updates... on how my weight loss journey is coming along..
i can tell you that starting this monday...the 19th...i am having a fitness assessment and will be heading to the gym with a personal trainer .. one on one ... 3 times a week...
i am committing to getting my cardio in on the other days...
i am committing to writing everything down that i eat...
i am committing to my daily journal  entries to let out my feelings...
i am committing to a healthier way...
i am committing to a friend of mine that we will journey together...

this weekend was a bust.. chips, ice creme, cheezies...popcorn...the list goes on...
my sugar is starting to creep up, so it's back to focusing on the rest of my life... instead of just right now...
my real committment .. is to myself...

i've been reading many weight loss blogs this past week...there are soooo many people like me...
in the same boat..
feeling like shit...
fat..
inactive..
just want things to get better...

we need to join forces...
we need to support each other...
we need to share ideas that work... there are so many success stories.. sometimes we just need to change one little thing, like drink more water, and we shake our system up enough to see results...
we need positive support..

if anyone needs a buddy, or an encouraging word once in a while... just send me an email.. i will be happy to join forces and help each other out...
i need to get back to work...
i am hoping that i will put in enough work in the next couple of weeks to convince my doctors i am ready!
it's mcfatty monday...
here we go!!!!

(i'd love to hear your story.. if you've dropped by...do you read because you are just curious about my fat ass... are you struggling too??? looking for a plus size model?? lmao....)
have an amazing ..committed...and worthwhile week!

d xo