My background and circumstances may have influenced who I am, however I am responsible for who I become.
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ain't that the truth...
never really been fat... but the circumstances of my life for the past few years have led me down this path...
fat is what i am now...
but i am responsible for getting my fat ass out of this mess...

and i am doing it...
counting.. paying attention.. moving... Rob is even getting into it...
it's working...
i feel different...
every ounce of effort counts... every single ounce....

i think it's important to know what you are putting in your mouth.. or at least be conscious of the amount of food you are putting in there...
the key is burning off more calories than you take in, right?
and it doesn't matter how you burn them off...
i sanded an entire master bedroom floor by hand... then washed the floor by hand....
i had sweat in places i never knew you could have sweat...
it all counts...
it all makes a difference...

i wear a pedometer... and it's not to meet and make sure i walk 10,000 steps a day...
it's to keep me aware.. and to make sure that today, i make it a little further than i did yesterday!!!

my sugar is settling down this week.. i feel calmer... and to have a friend walking in the same shoes as i am really does make a huge difference...

i really think this is the hardest thing i have ever done... looking after me..
well.. let the games begin...LOL
d.xo