well the weekend wasn't a complete bust...

we had gracie's bday party on saturday and i didn't eat all day and then came home and rob made tilapia and coleslaw.. so that was good.

yesterday was more of a gong-show...

went to church for the first time because i actually wanted to go... and then came home, had some friends over for lunch and had hotdogs, sausages and hamburgers...

and diner was pasta..

so not the best choices..

but i was very active..

lots of housework, barely sat down...

but i saw the pics from gracie's party...

and i am so mad at myself...

fat and ugly.. that's totally how i feel about myself...

but it's the truth...

i have avoided pictures for a long time because i was fat...

now... if i waited till i was thin, no one would know what i looked like..

so i get in the pics if people want... and who cares... someday i am hoping to be proud of at least one picture...

it's anew week, and a new roll of film.. so here we go!!!!

d xo